You don't get it.

My work is starting to tick me off. One of my favorite people that I work told me that since I am now getting 3 days a week off that some of my co-workers are talking trash. I promptly replied, "I don't care and they can kiss my ass." They have no idea how hard it is to be pregnant let alone being pregnant and working. I didn't even ask who it was because I already know and could care less. Today we were short staffed and I knew I was going to have to work more than I am used to but everytime I sat down this one person asked me to do something. I never said no because if she ever complains I will be able to say I never said no when someone asked me to do something. She asked me to push a bed today and I was about to say that I couldn't but my pal P told her, "she can't push that bed!". She didn't say anything back to him and I was laughing on the inside. See, she thinks I should be able to do everything that she can. Try gaining 33 pounds in 6 months. Try every time you get up from a chair your pelvis feeling like it is going to fall apart. Try peeing every 30 minutes. Try waking up at least 3 times a night to pee and your pelvis being so stiff that you can barely walk to the bathroom. Try everytime you lay on the couch your husband has to pull you up. Try peeing a little each time you sneeze. Try not being able to go grocery shopping without your back hurting so bad you can barely walk. Try barely being able to get out of your car. Try not being able to walk around the house without getting out of breath. Try all of those while WORKING. They don't understand and it really ticks me off. And you know what else? At least I am working 3 days still. I could not be working AT ALL and you would be even shorter staffed.

Oops I did it again.

Christmas Eve Fajita feast was a hit! Everyone kept saying how good and tender the meat was. I am glad that they finally got to taste my favorite restaurant. I am so glad that I didn't make anything except 3 different kinds of breads for my sisters. I slaved over a hot oven for 4 hours (with breaks) making those breads. By 5pm when everyone got here I was so exhausted. I could barely enjoy anything because I just wanted to lay down. I didn't even do anything except bake those breads and sweep the floor and vacuum 2 rooms. I was miserable by 9:30 when everyone finally left. I could barely walk to bed my back, ankles and pelvis were so sore. I layed down and cried. P rubbed my back and ankles and I ended up falling asleep. It was awful. It really depresses me that I can barely do anything without being miserable later on. I'm afraid to go to the grocery store even. Yesterday we drove to P's moms and I took it easy. They cooked for me, waited on me hand and foot and I sat in the mechanincal chair that lifts you up. I took a 2 hour nap in that chair while P sat out in the deer stand. It was just what I needed. Next week I thought I would do 4 days a week instead of the 3 that I'm scheduled for but I'm starting to think that isn't such a good idea anymore. Now, that Christmas is over P and I are going to start money crunching. I only have 4 weeks of work left which is only 2 more paychecks and they won't be 40hr checks.

What happened to my energy?

Yesterday I over did it BIG TIME. I was feeling great and full of energy. I went to bed at midnight the night before and got up at 7am so that I would be able to sleep that night for work in the morning. I headed to Wal-Mart for grocery shopping and came home. Then I took dog one to groomer. She poops in the place and was acting all kinds of crazy. Came home. Took dog two to the vet. He is 80pds and did not want to go to the vet for whatever reason. He was pulling me around the parking lot like a rag doll. The pavement was wet so when we left he jumped in my car and got black paw prints everywhere. Sigh. Picked up dog one from groomer. Came home. Took a shower because I felt so gross from dealing with them and I was sweating like a pig in the vet. Took dog three to another groomer because they do a better job. She is a princess and didn't want to walk so I had to carry her. She is only 9pds so I don't mind. Went to the dentist. I thought I was going to pass out from heat stroke because for some reason they had the fireplace on and it was 71 degrees outside. Had a good cleaning and got relaxed. Yes, cleanings relax me; I don't know why. Now, to wait on dog three to get done at the groomer. Thought I would pass the time by going to Bed Bath & Beyond. Big mistake. I started feeling bad, the place was jam packed and I thought I was going to pass out. I don't know if I was dehydrated or exhausted but I felt like crap. I sat out in the parking lot and did some people watching and called P as soon as he got off work. I told him he had to meet me to eat or I was going home and he had to come back and get dog three. I had to either eat or lay down, I wasn't really sure. He met me to eat and I could barely eat anything. I felt so weak. I came home and went to bed. At work today I still felt very tired and still do. Needless to say I learned my lesson and won't be doing that much until after I have this baby.

and the days keep dragging along...

The days seem to be dragging. I'm getting bigger and bigger. I feel like I have so much energy and less aches and pains. The only pains I have is when I go from sitting or laying to standing. I feel like my pelvis is ripping in two! It's very uncomfortable. Dr. D said it is just the pelvis getting loose and seperating for birth.

I have cut down on hours at work and I really don't know why. I guess I thought by this point that I would be miserable but I'm not. I just don't want to work. The first week of January my boss has me working 3 days a week but I really need to work more because I am getting worried about needing money. Once Christmas is over we will have every opportunity to save as much money as we can so maybe I can cut down on my days. I have also decided to take off the week before I am due in case my water breaks at work I don't want to be so far from home. Dr. D said that when it does that contractions start in about 30 minutes and I don't want to be driving when that happens. The only bad part of that is it is one less week that I will get to be off after I have C. And, what if I am late? Then it will be so much wasted time. Maybe my boss will let me take another week off.

My baby shower at work was sweet. I got lots of diapers, a gift card, some cash, a few clothes, a blanket and one of my favorite CRNA's got us a playpen! I really feel blessed to have recieved so much stuff. The only thing we will have to buy is a monitor, breast pump, and high chair. I think we did pretty darn good. I can't wait for P's mom to finsh his bedding. I want to take picture of it all put together!

It's been a while.

It's been a while since I have posted anything. Everything is going good so far. At his last sonogram a week and a half ago C weighed 4 pds 3 oz. I can't believe I have a 4 pound human growing in my belly! I have gained 27 pounds so far. I can now feel him kicking most of the day and it is right under my boobs at the top of my belly. I can even see my belly moving. It's pretty amazing. At the last sonogram his head was down he was laying on his right side. Everything seems to have formed normally and Dr. D said he will be approx 7.5-8pds. That's a big baby! I just hope that the things they can't see on sono won't be present like mental retardation, cleft palate or spina bifida, blindness or deafness when he is born.

Work is getting more difficult. The bending and walking back and forth takes all my energy. I have mainly been doing a desk job but every now and then they will have me recover a patient and today it seemed to be the most difficult one. He had came intubated (breathing tube still in from surgery). His blood sugar was 57 (normal is 70-120). I had to give him IV "sugar" and he was screaming in pain after they took out the breathing tube. Then he had to pee but couldn't stay awake long enough to do that. Then he had to poop so I had to give him a bed pan. All this required me to go back and forth to the drug machine to get medications out, struggle to pull down pants and underwear, bend down while I held the urinal, then get him to lift up to put a bed pan under him all while going back and forth to my computer to chart everything. Then when he was awake enough to go to his room I had to help push a big hospital bed down 2 sets of hallways. See why work is so exhausting for me? I can't do the 10 hour days anymore so next week I am going to do 4-8 hour days. My doctor appointments are getting more frequent so I still need my 1 day off a week. The bad news is I will only get 32 hours a week. That is going to make a big difference on my check.

My work is throwing me a baby shower tomorrow. I feel so lucky that they like me enough to do this for me. But I do hate going up there on my day off. It won't feel like a day off and I can't rest. Bummer.

What I'm thankful for.

My husband. Without him my life would be pointless and boring. He loves me no matter what and puts up with me. I can't imagine my life without him.
My baby. I am truly blessed by God to be able to concieve and grow a human inside me. It is a miracle and I thank God for this awesome opportunity.
My sisters. We have all been through so much in our lives together. Lil K and I have always been close because we are 1 1/2 years apart in age. Big K and I were never close. She was 4 years older and she picked on us and beat us up! Now we are all so close and I love them a lot!
My nieces, nephew and great niece. I am thankful that they are all happy, healthy and smart. They love me so much (even the 17 year old!)and my life is better because they were born.
My BFF lil J. She lives all the way in Washington and we never talk on the phone but when we are together it is like she has lived next door the whole time. Her 3 kids are my godchildren and I couldn't be luckier! We have so much fun when we are together and there is never drama between us.
My BFF big J. We have known each other since we were in 4th grade and became best friends in 10th grade. We can go months without talking or seeing each other but I know she will be there for me ALWAYS. I can always count on her. She never judges me and there is no drama between us, ever!
My career and job. Everything happens for a reason and I think God had it planned for me all along to come to the hospital where I'm at. I love my job and am so much happier then when I was at the previous hospital. I have learned so much and can work pretty much anywhere with what I have learned at the two hospitals combined. My boss is amazing. She is very flexible and pretty much will let me work whenever I want and as little or as much as I want. She is very fair and easy on me. My benefits allow me to take almost my whole maternity leave with pay. Working as an RN has allowed me to be comfortable in life. I can buy what I want when I want it and save some money as well. I can't see me doing anything other than being a nurse!

What are you thankful for??

the Inbetween.

So, I'm 29 weeks today. Sometimes I don't even feel pregnant and somedays I feel like I'm 10 months. My work has been being pretty easy on me and letting me do the one job that uses the least amount of energy. I appreciate that, a lot. I can barely bend over a patient's stretcher without it killing my back. I get so out of breath doing the littlest tasks. I wish I didn't have to work at all but this is the real world and not Tiffany's dreamland.

Clothes are starting to tick me off. The maternity clothes that I have are too big and of course my normal clothes are too small. The only clothes I feel comfortable in are PJ's and I can't wear those everywhere. I wish I could but I can't. I refuse to buy anymore maternity clothes because of three reasons: they are expensive; plus size maternity clothes are hard to find and mostly available online only(hince the reason they are too big); and I probobly will never need them again. My "maternity wardrobe" consists of one long sleeve shirt, one short sleeve shirt, a sleeveless dress(it was on clearance) and one pair of maternity jeans. The rest of my pregnacy wardrobe consists of a few t-shirts, a few blouses that still fit and a few pairs of black stretchy work out type pants. I always feel so frumpy and hardly ever match. THAT is the reason why I don't like to go do anything these days. It's pretty frustrating. (as I am typing C is moving around and I remember that this is ALL going to be so worth it when I see him for the first time).

Back to the doctor on tomorrow. I hope everything continues to go well. I should have another songram at my next appointment and I can't wait to see how much he has grown!

It still amazes me.

I'm sitting here feeling C wiggle around inside of me. Am I weird that it still amazes me that I have a baby inside of me that is moving and kicking? It is still such a miracle to me. I am in awe everytime I feel him and it makes me so happy. I can't describe what it is like to feel that and know that in a few months I am going to be a mother. I was standing at the front door today just looking outside at the beautiful fall day and I was thinking how much my world is about to change. Everything is going to be so different. I can't wait to see what he looks like and pray every single day that my pregnancy continues to go smoothly and that C is born a healthy baby boy.

J is gone and made it back to Washington safely. She missed her kiddos so much. I miss her so much already. We had such a blast when she was here. It had been so long since P and I had gone out and hung out with anyone. We basically sit around the house. Between me working long hours and being so tired all the time and him working out everyday after work we don't have time to go out. All we want to do is sleep. So, it was really nice to get out of the house and hang out with her. J told us that since me, P and her sister J are encouraging her and her husband to NOT come back to Texas and see the world she made up her mind to move to either Pennsylvania or Florida. We told her PA since we have never been there. She wants to move there because the Hershey's factory is there. See, we are best friends for a reason :)

Baby Shower Day!

I had the most amazing baby shower today! I got tons of presents but only 3 of the big things I registered for. I was hoping for more big things because that stuff is expensive! I still have a work baby shower in December so hopefully they will all pitch in on some big items. I was so happy to see all my family come together and my friends too. I have the most amazing friends and family. Nobody can be luckier than I am, I swear. My BFF J came in all the way from Washington State to give me a baby shower. She did such a good job and worked so hard to make it special for me. I was so surprised to see my dad there too! I haven't seen him in 5 years, since me and P's wedding. Being the preggo emotional wreck that I am I started crying when I saw him. I was so overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions and I couldn't help it. People thought I was sad but I was far from sad. I will probobly cry when CJ is born too. I had to hurt my moms feelings and tell her she couldn't be in the delivery room. She thinks because she is the "grandma" she should get to be in the delivery room. She wasn't a mom and therefore can't be a grandma (but that's a whole other story).

Hey Jealousy.

I met another nurse at the hospital on Sunday who was preggers too. Her round belly was so dang cute! I figured she was 7 months or so. She was only 5 1/2 months. It kinda made me depressed because I don't even look pregnant. I just look like I'm getting fatter. I don't know why I got sad because I always knew I wouldn't look pregnant due to my weight before pregnancy. I was jealous I guess that I don't look cute.

My baby shower is getting so close! I even went and bought a maternity shirt to wear. My shopping today was also depressing. I'm too fat for the cute maternity shirts. The plus size maternity shirts were way too big. I was able to find a cute little dress and a shirt. But again it doesn't even look like a maternity shirt on me.

Good news at my check up today though. Dr. D said my weight gain is good, blood pressure is good and my uterus is up past my belly button. His heart rate was around 150 which is also perfect. She also told me that both of my sisters and husband can be in the delivery room. They were both very excited to hear that and I can't wait for them to experience his birth!

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Where are the months going?

Only 20 days until my baby shower! 19 days until I get to see my BFF J! She is planning this whole shower all the way from Washington state. My sisters and my other BFF J(her sister)are also helping since they live here. J is flying in on the 5th and I can't wait to see her! It has been almost a year since I have seen her and I miss her like nobody's business.

I can't believe that October is halfway over already. These months are just flying by. C is kicking so much and I can tell he is getting bigger because he has moved up near my belly button. My next doctors appointment is next Monday where they test me for gestational diabetes. I pray everyday that I have no complications during my pregnancy or labor and delivery. I am most scared of high blood pressure that can lead to preeclampsia. I feel that this is the most dangerous and can lead to fetal death.

P was diagnosed with high cholesterol. I am so sad because he isn't even 30 yet. He isn't going to take medications though. He will just try to manage his diet and join a gym. Wish him luck because I know he needs it.

99 Things

99 Things

***Here are the rules: Bold the things you’ve done and post on your blog!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightening storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

6 months already?

I can't believe I'm already 6 months pregnant! It has went by so fast yet my delivery date seems so far away. My baby shower is less than a month away. October and November are such busy months for me at work and with Dr appointments. I think I have 2 things to do a week. I'm most excited about a breastfeeding class that P and I are going to together. I'm so excited to bond with my little boy in this way.

All I have wanted to do lately is SLEEP. Friday and Saturday night I slept 12 hours straight and didn't wake up feeling like crappola like I usually would. It just makes me feel so rested and rejuvinated. Wish I could do it every night! It really takes a lot of energy to make a baby!

T really likes his Invisible Fence. He saw a squirrel today and chased it around without going out of the yard. It was really cute. We leave him inside at night because he will bark if there are any suspicious noises. If we are here and we put him outside he will just stand at the door waiting for us to let him in. He loves us. He also lost 3 pounds from his last vet appointment in December. He weighs 85 pounds now. The vet said that is exactaly what he needs to weigh.

Welcome to my everynight.

Every single night I have been having the most vivid, detailed dreams. I never remember them but always wake up thinking, "wow". The past two mornings Patrick has left early for work and wakes me up from said dreams. I tell him the dreams as soon as I wake up because it's fresh. Yesterday's I don't remember but today's I did. It was 5:30am by the way and I was unable to go back to sleep so I went to Wal-Mart. Wal-mart at 7am on a Sunday is the ONLY time to go by the way. It was very nice.

Last night's dream: I was a man. I lived in a huge mansion. I was bored and had a pair of binoculars so I looked out the window at my neighbors house. He also had a huge mansion. He was home and so was his naked girlfriend. They were snorting coke. He saw me spying on him and he came over to my house mad as hell. He told me he was the head of a drug cartel and I was going to die. I ran and hid but it was like in a secret bathroom in my house. I wasn't alone there were many mexican people there also trying to escape him. The next thing I know, I'm sitting on a dock at some lake at around 3am. I apparently had escaped to Mexico, got a new identity and was trying to get back into America, illegally. Only 8 people were allowed on this small boat and we were chosen by how fast we could but a jigsaw puzzle together. I was getting so mad at this old Mexican lady because she kept stealing pieced of my puzzle that were already put togheter. I would have to yank it out of her hand and put the whole piece back together. It was making me SO mad, but I finally got a ticket. We were told to bring a baby bottle filled with formula(?), something to eat and a drink because we would be traveling all night. I forgot my food which triggered a memory of one last meeting with my family before I had gone to Mexico. I was a woman now. My niece K and C were there, my only nephew, and my oldest sister. We had gone to the beach and had a nice time. I had forgot to bring a lunch so my nephew went to Sonic for me with my last 2 dollars in change I had. Cut back to waiting on my boat. We got into the boat and traveled all night through a swamp and got to America. Several of us got into a car and were back in DFW. We got a flat tire in the rain and were so worried that a cop was going to stop and try to help and find out we were illegals. A truck pulled up behind us and I decided that since I spoke English I would get out. Turns out the people that stopped to help spoke Spanish only.

I know, it's confusing and CrAzY! Welcome to my everynight.

I'm gonna start letting her worry.

We went to the doctor yesterday and saw our little boy! He now weighs 1lb and 2 oz! He has doubled in weight in one month. Dr. D says that I will really start to get big now. I have gained 11 pounds so far. I am really glad that I lost the 14pds in preparation for my lap band now that I pregnant. I would be over 250 now. Hopefully by the end of the pregnancy I will only weight a just over 250. She also highly recommended that I get the flu/H1N1 shot. I don't know how I feel about that. The permission form clearly states that no testing has been done on pregnant woman. I guess I am going to get it. She said pregnant women get really, really, really sick and can even die from the flu. I told her how I have been worring about everything all the time and she flat out said, "it is my job to worry about you and make sure everything is going ok in your pregnancy so stop worrying!" She also said that this is the best I will feel in my pregnancy so enjoy it now because the next thing I know it will be over and I will miss being pregnant. So, I am going to stop worrying!

T is doing really good with the Invisible Fence. He gets shocked from time to time but he learns his lesson quickly. He even saw a cat this morning and didn't take off after it! The only problem is getting him to stay outside! He wants to be inside with us all the time. Oh, and we don't have termites! Yay!

Mo Money?

The baby furniture is finally all put together. Now I just need P's mom to get back from Maine so she can get to work on the bedding and curtain for C's room. The fabric finally came in and it looks basically like what I thought it was going to. It's really going to look cute.

I am starting to worry about our financial situation. The other day I realized that I will roughly only have 7 weeks of paid leave when C is born. P will take his paid 2 weeks vacation but I am taking 3 months off. So, that means that I will have 5 weeks without pay. That's 2.5 checks! We have saved money for this occasion since I figured I wouldn't have enough time off. We have been spending lots of money on C's furniture, Invisible Fence and now we have to have our house treated for termites. I have no idea how much that will cost. The exterminator comes on Wednesday to give us and estimate. Our savings just keeps getting smaller and smaller it seems. I think I may have to take another weekend sometime in November while I can.

Cause i think they are cute!

It makes me laugh everytime.

I have been feeling C move almost everyday now. Mostly at night. It is the oddest feeling in the world and very hard to describe. It's kinda like when you are really nervous and your stomach is turning. All I can do is laugh. Laugh from the weirdness of a human growing inside me and the odd feeling it gives me. Last night he was moving after P started talking to him. By "talking" I mean P getting close to my belly after asking him 200 times to do it and saying something like "hey". Not much of a talker, that husband of mine. I say good morning to him almost everyday and try to talk to him when I remember. Apparently, his hearing organs are all formed and he can hear my heart, my voice, my intestines working away and very loud noises. The books I have say that he may even get startled at loud noises. 134 days to go!

We finally got Invisible Fence installed! 10 days of training and T will be outside 24/7! No more hair EVERYWHERE all the time! He is going to be in for a very big shock in 8 days...

I'm sick of it.

I'm so sick of this one person at work telling me what I'm not going to be able to do when C is born. Listen, I understand that my life is about to change but that doesn't mean I can't have a life of my own. I understand that for months after he is born that it will be feedings, diaper changes and crying and feedings and diaper changes and...well you get the idea. I understand that it will be about him and not P and I anymore. But yes, P and I can still do fun things together.

For instance, I was playing a game on my phone during some downtime at work. She comes over to me and asks what I was doing. I said I was playing a game. She then said, "no more games for you when you have that baby." Seriously? I'm only playing a friggen game? So, her and another guy, who doesn't have kids, gang up on me. They start telling me all the things I will never be able to do again. Like concerts and the midnight Twilight premieres. I was starting to get pissed and I said that is what babysitters are for. They said, "oh you won't trust anyone to watch him." Yeah, I think I trust my BFF's who have 3 kids each and my sisters whom have 5 kids between them, and a grandchild. I think they know how to watch a baby.

P and I waited to have a kid until later on in life for these reasons: we wanted to have fun partying and not have to worry about a child at home. We wanted to have hangovers and not worry about getting up early to take care of a kid. We wanted to stay out late at night and not worry about getting home so a babysitter can go home. If we wanted to go to a movie at 10 at night or go to Shreveport on a whim, we could go without having to find a babysitter. We wanted to spend all the money we earn on us and no one else. We wanted to spend our first married years being married and not being parents. We knew that we were too immature to have kids until now.

We know that we don't have as much freedom as we have had our entire lives and we are okay with that. We are prepared to have our world revolve around C and that is exactaly how we want it to be. But, in order to stay sane we will have time for ourselves.

18weeks 4days

We had another sonogram today. C weighs a whole 9oz and his little belly is only approx. 6 inches around. Little tiny baby. My uterus is up to my belly button and I can feel it when I push on my belly. The sonographer said that there seems to be plenty of fluid in my uterus and all the parts she could see seemed like they were forming ok. I have another sonogram in a month to see all the parts that she couldn't see very well today. I thank God for him and pray everyday that he is born happy and healthy.

I have been feeling my heart beating really strongly from time to time and Dr. D says it's because I have and increased blood volume and therefore and increased cardiac output. She said don't be surprised if I start to feel it in my ears and face. It's a really weird feeling to have!

P and I attempted to put together the baby's bookshelf today but so many of the parts were damaged. It would be ok because most of the parts aren't visable but one of the major parts is all dented and crappy looking from shipping. I was so bummed because I was ready to have it put up. I hope the crib isn't the same way.

Team Work!

P and I put together the baby dresser yesterday. Well he mostly put it together as I painted owl pictures for the nursery. I really enjoy spending time with him. When I am off and he is at work I am so bored and I miss him like cRaZy. I can't wait for the rest of the furniture to get here!

I am so excited that I get to custom make everything, except for the furniture of course, for C's room. I have made two pictures, painted his name lettering and I will be making a lampshade. I can't wait for P's mom to do all the bedding and valance.

I am 18 weeks today, almost halfway done! I am starting to feel like my belly is growing. It's harder for me to tell since I already have so much fat! I have been eating pretty healthy since I found out I was pregnant. 3 square meals a day and 1 or 2 snacks a day. Did you know when you are pregnant you only need an extra 300 calories a day? I hadn't had a Coke until about a month ago when I started having pregnancy migraines and Dr. D told me to drink a Coke when it starts. I feel guilty everytime I do though so I only do it when the headache is unbearable. Thank goodness the headaches are kinda going away.

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Another ticker...

Wedding Day

Today my oldest sister K had her dream wedding. She was the most beautiful I have ever seen her in my entire life. As I type her and her new husband are waiting at the airport to board a plane to go on their honeymoon. It was so stressful to me and it reminded me why P and I went to Vegas! Everything went off without a hitch and it was amazing! The lemon flavored cake was the bomb!

What made this day even better is we got one of four parts of our baby furniture! Now we get to start putting the nursery together! P's mom insists on making all the other stuff for the room. I'm so excited!

Nursery

Things I'm going to eat when I get unpregnant.

1. A hot dog with mustard, onions and relish.
2. An Italian Nightclub or Turkey sandwich from Jimmy Johns.
3. An Italian BMT from Subway.
4. Pineapple
5. Mango
6. A strawberry coconut pineapple smoothie from Frullati.
7. Mahi Quepos from Pappadeaux.
8. an Ultimate Feast from Red Lobster.
9. A bleu cheese chopped salad from Outback.
10. A steak cooked medium from Outback.
11. A bleu cheese burger from Hooters.
12. A turkey sandwich from Chilis.
13. A mango margarita from Chilis.

I'm sure I will think of more later :)

Crazy, huh?

So I met Dr. D today for the first time. I love her. She is very personable and ready to answer your questions. I feel I can really trust her. She examined my cervix and she said it looked fine. No signs of inflammation. I'm so glad because P has been deprived of s-e-x for about 6 weeks. Both of us made a decision not to because we would both freak out if I started bleeding. Then I had one of the most awesome moment of my entire life. I had a transvaginal sonogram. You could see the baby! And it acutally looked like a baby! You could see arms, legs, umbilical cord and head. It was surreal and made it really kick in that we are having a baby!!! It is such a miracle and I feel so blessed right now. He or she is gonna be a big one! I was 11 weeks 5 days and the baby was as big as if I were 12 weeks and 3 days. Crazy, huh? I can't wait!!

change of doctors

I went for my first sono/labs on Wednesday. I have changed doctors due to the fact that I have heard some very bad things about him. I have an inflammed cervix. I have had to take Metrogel for 3 days and I am glad that I am done with that! I hate shoving things up my hoo hoo. Hopefully all my labs come back ok and the inflammation is gone. I don't want anything else to go wrong with this pregnancy since it will probobly be my last. I feel like this is my little miracle baby and I pray everyday that God holds my little one in his hands and keeps him/her safe. I have so many worries and I don't really know why. That is why I want to change doctors because he doesn't comfort me and I wouldn't trust him if he did. My baby looks like a little sea monkey and I am so happy that the sono was ok. I saw the little heart fluttering like a little butterfly! :)

So excited!

the big day

So, starting last Monday (Memorial Day) I began to get sick. Just nauseated all day long. Tuesday was worse and Wednesday wasn't any better. So, I began to think, "Maybe I'm pregnant". So, Thursday I was a little better. Husband bought me a pregnancy test along with some soup and I took one. It was POSITIVE! I didn't believe it. So I waited till the morning and took another one. It was POSITIVE too! I had to go to work due to several commitments and it was the worst day ever! I was so sick! I made an appointment for the OBGYN that day for today. At 1 o'clock I will know for sure. I really think that I am based on my symptoms.

1. Very sore breasts. I mean the slightest touch feels like I have been punched.
2. No period since April (end of April).
3. Severe morning sickness. Heck ALL DAY sickness.
4. Sensitive to smells.
5. Fullness feeling in my abdomen.
6. Two positive pregnancy tests.

So, we will see...