I can't believe it's been almost a month since I have written anything. I have been busy working and trying to stay out of the heat. Cash is getting bigger and sitting up on his own. He holds his bottle (when he feels like it). He is easily destracted and amused just like his Mama! He loves being held and doesn't like being alone. We have tried a few more times to get him to sleep in his crib but he won't have it. I hate sitting there watching the monitor and seeing his tears streaming down his face. I cave everytime. Oh well, he will be grown before I know it so I'm enjoying it. He has had lots of baby food and loves everything, peas, pears and bananas seem to be his favorite. He is drinking 3-4 8 oz bottles a day. He loves to have blowout poopie diapers and get poop everywhere! He has done this countless times.

I am going to take a mini photography session with a local photographer. She offered a 4 hour class to the first 10 people on Facebook that responded and I got a spot! It is just to show you the basics of your camera and how to take better pictures of your kids. I have been searching the internet for this exact thing and haven't found a single offering. I am beyond escatic! I also won a 1/2 price session that I will use for Cash's one year pictures. I am so excited about both because she is such an amazing photographer! I'm also ready to use my really expensive camera to it's fullest capacity!

Here is a picture that my niece took yesterday. I told her she needs to become a photographer because she has great persepective.

Oh what a night.

Apparently we only thought Cash was teething before. Last night was horrible!! He passed out around 9pm. We put him right to bed and he slept until 11pm. He proceeded to wake up SCREAMING every 1-2 hours! We gave him bottle and rocked him and cuddled him and he just wouldn't go back to sleep. We finally ended up giving him Tylenol about 7am and he went right to sleep until 11am. He has had a few "screaming for no reason" episodes already. His cold teething ring quieted him and now he is playing with his toys quietly. I'm now wondering if it was gas pains too. He has passed gas generously for the past few hours. I don't know what it was but I hope it doesn't repeat tonight. It reminded us of that first month and it wasn't fond memories!

Our growing boy.

We took Cash out to eat with us tonight. I really realized how much he is growing. First off he HATES his carrier with a passion. I hate it too. It is so heavy. As soon as he can sit up full time on his own (he is almost there) we are switching to his big boy car seat. He can't sit in a high chair yet so he stays in his carrier when we go eat. He is starting to catch on that his seat is boring and he only gets one view: my side. Well in the restaraunt he starts fussing. P holds him in his lap and he plays with his toy. He gets tired of that toy easily. He will grab and take anything in his reach and put it straight into his mouth. He had a hunk of bread, the paper from the bread basket, napkins, his toy, his ring toy. He tired to grab my fork and my drink anytime they were near. You really have to be on your toes around this kid. He is so curious and full of energy. He ate a whole jar of peas there and loved them! He liked them more than sweet potatoes which is weird. We had little green balls of peas everywhere. I ordered a cart/high chair cover today in preparation of him sitting up and I can't wait. It's tiring holding him and trying to eat with one hand.

I love to watch him

I sit here watching Cash smiling and laughing at one of our dogs that is licking herself. Now, he is trying to eat a pillow that is in front of him. Earlier he was trying desperately to get a tag off of a toy. He was so patient and intense. He is sitting up so good now with only a little support. He cried a minute ago when I walked out of the room. He turned 5 months on Monday and he is growing so fast! I didn't think it was possible but I love him more and more every single day. He is addicted to bananas and cries when we take away his frozen banana the other day. Tonight we try sweet potatoes!!

Lord Have Mercy

LORD HAVE MERCY I love my little boy. I watch him grow more and more each day and it blows my mind how fast he learns things. I wonder where all the time has gone. I don't remember him as a teeny tiny 6pds 14oz. I lay beside him and wait for him to go to sleep and I stare at his chubby little hands moving all over the place until he relaxes and all I do is think, "he is mine, this baby is mine. I created him inside of me. I have never loved anyone the way I love him". I pray everyday that God keeps him healthy, doesn't take him away from me prematurely and I don't have to leave him prematurely. I can't wait to see what kind of person he will be and hopefully I can teach him how to be a kind, giving and honest person. I thank God that he brought me P because I couldn't raise him without him. He is the most hardworking, selfless person I know. I know without a doubt he would do anything for me and Cash.

LORD HAVE MERCY I am truly blessed.

I think I can I think I can

Cash rolled over by himself twice and now he could care less about rolling over.

He tries to pull himself to a sitting position but doesn't have enough strength to sit up.

Cash has been teething since he was 3 months old but still hasn't broken a tooth.

He's getting pretty good at holding his bottle but he's not professional yet.

He would rather stand than sit.

I'm not ready for him to be a big boy just yet.

I love

I love being drenched in drool.
I don't mind being spit up on.
Poopy diaper blowouts make me laugh.
Pee fountains crack me up.
I love the instantaneous ceasing of crying as soon as that nipple gets close to his mouth,
It makes me smile every time I hear him squeal.
When he smiles at me, my heart skips a beat.
When he laughs, I laugh harder.
The way he opens his mouth for a kiss when my face gets close to his makes my heart melt.
I'm truly at peace when I put my mouth on his and he closes his eyes just a little and he is so still.
He never ceases to amaze me with his discoveries everyday and how fast he is growning.

I love him like I have never, could never, will never ever love someone.